Vulnerability

Vulnerability …
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I’ll be 31 in a few months and in this photo I was about 1 or 2 years old. I was sitting here reflecting on my life realizing that when my parents brought me into this world, I don’t think they ever imagined I would have gone through all that I went through and be where I am today.
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I reminisced on my childhood days when I cried over heartaches, breakups, bullies in school and sit here today realizing how all of those moments are nothing but a memory now. Things of the past that shaped me yet no longer faze me.
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It’s funny to think that we live through moments in our lives that seem to be the end of the world only to live a few more years and realize it’s not. Realize that we are a lot more resilient than we give ourselves credit for. Realize that things do genuinely get better as we live through experiences and work on bettering ourselves as individuals.
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I struggled with being vulnerable. Of opening my heart up to the unknown and allowing myself to want something so badly. Bc wanting something that bad meant if I didn’t get it then I was setting myself up to hurt. I love hard and passionately and with that level of vulnerability comes the risk of hurting.
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But here’s the thing I realized today and now realize God has kept pushing and teaching me to understand. Life means so much more when you choose to be vulnerable because it’s better to be vulnerable and get hurt or fail then to sit on the side lines doing absolutely nothing at all. I don’t ever want to look back at life and say “if I only would have tried.”
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Life is meant to be lived to its fullness. We are meant to try and fail and get up and try again. That’s how change comes about. That’s how the greatest inventions are created. That’s how people become inspired and life changing movements begin. By those who chose to get up time and time again and fight through success and failures. By those who decided they weren’t just going to be a spectator in life sitting around criticizing everything everyone else was doing but deciding themselves to do nothing at all.
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I don’t know about you but I don’t want to live a timid life that doesn’t know defeat or victory.

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