I had a rough day today. Circuit overload! Which got me into thinking about the importance of letting it out.
To get a little bit of a backstory I tend not to cry and prefer to avoid it all together. Last year my aunt passed and just a week ago an uncle. Would you believe me if I told you that I couldn’t cry? I tried. Believe me I tried and all I could do was crack jokes and laugh at things unrelated to their deaths.
All week I meditated on this because it bothered me that I couldn’t cry. I was angry at myself.
Then today came along. Stressful day for so many silly reasons. It all started because I wanted to get my teeth cleaned and I couldn’t. The dentist was being silly. That led to me being angry and going for a run. Which led to me crying because my uncle had passed.
It took a dentist refusing to clean my teeth for me to feel the death of my uncle.
Now I come back to the topic of this post. A lot of us live in a world where we have to be strong and being strong means not crying. Being strong means not making mistakes, being independent, and not needing anyone. I’m beginning to learn that it’s not true. Just because you cry, make mistakes, need help from others, etc does not make you weak. Instead it makes you a beautiful strong human being. Because you have to be strong to cry, make mistakes, and ask for help.
There are so many of you out there that hurt SO much inside and have never allowed yourself to let it all out. Not even the tiniest bit. I have so much from my past that has just begun to resurface itself YEARS later and I’ve learned that I have to find a way to let it out and heal!
For all of you that have a lot of pain inside, I will give to you the same advice a dear friend gave to me and it’s that “It’s okay to cry.”
You’d be surprised at how crying can bring you one step closer to healing and letting go.