When the Hardships Come At You

All of my life I wanted to become still like these rocks resting on top of rocks. I wanted to come to a point in life where I didn’t want to feel anything anymore, but I’d probably have to be dead to get to that point.

So, the same way these rocks had the stability to rest there through a natural disaster, I’ve come to understand the stability of feelings and life in general. Yes bad things happen, we go through hurt, we worry, but as long as we look at a situation in the worst way, we may never find any sort of equilibrium.

Because I was hurting inside, I wanted to push all of my feelings away. I didn’t want to feel anything anymore, whether it was hurt, betrayal, abuse, love, etc.

After reading many self help books and talking to a a few of my close friends, I’ve come to realize that it is okay to feel, to hurt, to be angry… I decided to let all the feelings come at me, while I made myself get back up on my feet and continue to find some sort of stability and sense of peace.

Burying your feelings away isn’t going to help you find happiness, but allowing yourself to go through with the emotions helps you clear your mind and soul. I’ve incorporated meditation, yoga, running, walking, and doing other things out of my comfort zone so that it could help me find some sort of peace within me.

When the hardships come at you, the ones you can’t control, go with the flow, but remember you are stronger than you think you are and you can find peace and stability wherever you may be.

If these rocks were able to balance on top through a natural disaster, we can overcome any hardship in life, especially with support from loved ones. Accept who you are, accept your feelings, and accept change.

Just Not Today..

“Just Not Today” something that Nicole mentioned in our interview. A really unique way to process negative thoughts and feelings we may behave struggling with.
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The idea is that you keep telling yourself day by day “Just not today.” Whether your thoughts are quitting on life, giving up on a dream, giving in to an addiction; whatever it may be… Just not today.
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If you haven’t already, take a listen to my interview with Nicole where we chat a bit on the idea behind this phrase. Xoxo love you guys. .

 

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Vulnerability

Vulnerability …
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I’ll be 31 in a few months and in this photo I was about 1 or 2 years old. I was sitting here reflecting on my life realizing that when my parents brought me into this world, I don’t think they ever imagined I would have gone through all that I went through and be where I am today.
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I reminisced on my childhood days when I cried over heartaches, breakups, bullies in school and sit here today realizing how all of those moments are nothing but a memory now. Things of the past that shaped me yet no longer faze me.
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It’s funny to think that we live through moments in our lives that seem to be the end of the world only to live a few more years and realize it’s not. Realize that we are a lot more resilient than we give ourselves credit for. Realize that things do genuinely get better as we live through experiences and work on bettering ourselves as individuals.
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I struggled with being vulnerable. Of opening my heart up to the unknown and allowing myself to want something so badly. Bc wanting something that bad meant if I didn’t get it then I was setting myself up to hurt. I love hard and passionately and with that level of vulnerability comes the risk of hurting.
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But here’s the thing I realized today and now realize God has kept pushing and teaching me to understand. Life means so much more when you choose to be vulnerable because it’s better to be vulnerable and get hurt or fail then to sit on the side lines doing absolutely nothing at all. I don’t ever want to look back at life and say “if I only would have tried.”
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Life is meant to be lived to its fullness. We are meant to try and fail and get up and try again. That’s how change comes about. That’s how the greatest inventions are created. That’s how people become inspired and life changing movements begin. By those who chose to get up time and time again and fight through success and failures. By those who decided they weren’t just going to be a spectator in life sitting around criticizing everything everyone else was doing but deciding themselves to do nothing at all.
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I don’t know about you but I don’t want to live a timid life that doesn’t know defeat or victory.